Suspended Animation
Again, I’m still here. Not like you would have known from the 2.5 month lack of posts to this and the reading blog, Time Enough At Last.

While I wish I could say that my absence was due to finishing the aforementioned NaNoWriMo book and having it “discovered”, in the words of LL Cool J, that’s a lie. Truthfully, I got about 10,000 words in and then just hit the wall. I think I’d like to work with it some more, but outside of the constraints of National Novel Writing Month.

No, it was a more banal combination of laziness, inertia, depression, distraction, burn-out, the job, the change of seasons, lack of inspiration, wah fucking wah, that kept me from posting on even a semi-regular basis. It’s not as if I wasn’t enraged about anything the past two months, or didn’t have anything to say. It’s just that it all seemed so useless, hopeless, and not worth the pixels. I never wanted either of these projects to turn into what a friend calls “I took a shit” blogs, where the author writes incessantly about themselves and their lives. To me, those aren’t blogs, those are journals. And very few people have interesting enough lives to warrant journals that are read by potentially millions of people.

I’m not even sure where to pick up from on this blog, which is more of a problem over on the reading blog. My reading notes fell into disarray a few months ago, and I’m not sure if I’m going to even attempt to put together a “Time Enough at Last 2005” print zine edition. I will look through my notes, zines and blogs and make a decision soon. I’m not sure anyone would miss it if it didn’t happen.

I am going to strive to post on a more regular basis. (Where have I said that before?) I really envy people who can keep their blogs going day after day with truly interesting content. (Not just, “I did this and did that and then I took a shit.”) There’s some blogs that I actually have stopped reading just because they were just too good and it made me feel even worse about my neglect of this little here blog.

But then again, would anyone really miss Papercuts or Time Enough At Last if they disappeared? Blogs, like zines, are ephemeral. There are probably more “dead” and neglected blogs on the Internet than actively updated ones.

So, that’s the story, that’s the update for now. Maybe the new year will inspire or anger me enough to start posting every day or so. I certainly hope so. In the words of the late Joey Ramone, “I’m looking for something to believe in.”
- posted by Synd-e @ 2:41 PM